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Sepasang suami isteri – seperti pasangan lain di kota-kota besar meninggalkan anak-anak diasuh pembantu rumah semasa keluar bekerja.

Anak tunggal pasangan ini, perempuan berusia tiga setengah tahun.

Bersendirian di rumah dia kerap dibiarkan pembantunya yang sibuk bekerja bermain diluar, tetapi pintu pagar tetap dikunci. Bermainlah dia sama ada berbuai-buai di atas buaian yang dibeli bapanya, ataupun memetik bunga raya, bunga kertas dan lain-lain di laman rumahnya.

Suatu hari dia terjumpa sebatang paku karat. Dia pun melakar simen tempat letak kereta ayahnya tetapi kerana diperbuat daripada marmar,lakaran tidak kelihatan. Dicubanya pada kereta baru ayahnya. Ya.. kerana kereta itu bewarna gelap, lakarannya jelas. Apa lagi kanak-kanak ini pun melakarlah melahirkan kreativitinya. Hari itu bapa dan ibunya bermotosikal ke tempat kerja kerana laluannya sesak sempena perayaan Thaipusam.

Penuh sebelah kanan dia beredar ke sebelah kiri kereta. Dilakarnya gambar ibu dan ayahnya, gambarnya sendiri, lukisan ayam, kucing dan sebagainya mengikut imaginasinya. Kejadian itu langsung tak disedari si pembantu rumah.


Pulang petang itu, terkejut badaklah pasangan itu melihat kereta yang baru setahun dibeli dengan bayaran ansuran, berbatik-batik. Si bapa yang belum pun masuk ke rumah terus menjerit, “Siapa punya kerja ni?” Pembantu rumah yang tersentak dengan jeritan itu berlari keluar. Dia juga beristighfar.

Mukanya merah padam ketakutan tambah-tambah melihat wajah bengis tuannya. Sekali lagi diajukan pertanyaan keras kepadanya, dia terus mengatakan

“Tak tahu… !” “Duduk di rumah sepanjang hari tak tahu, apa kau buat?” herdik si isteri lagi. Si anak yang mendengar suara ayahnya, tiba-tiba berlari keluar dari bilik.

Dengan penuh manja dia berkata “Ita buat ayah.. cantik kan!” katanya menerkam ayahnya ingin bermanja seperti selalu. Si ayah yang hilang sabar merentap ranting kecil pokok bunga raya di depannya, terus dipukul bertalu-talu tapak tangan anaknya. Si anak yang tak mengerti apa-apa terlolong-lolong kesakitan sekaligus ketakutan. Puas memukul tapak tangan, si ayah memukul pula belakang tangan anaknya. Si ibu Cuma mendiamkan diri, mungkin setuju dan berasa puas dengan hukuman yang dikenakan.

Pembantu rumah melopong, tak tahu nak buat apa-apa. Si bapa cukup rakus memukul-mukul tangan kanan dan kemudian tangan kiri anaknya.

Selepas si bapa masuk ke rumah dituruti si ibu, pembantu rumah menggendong anak kecil itu, membawanya ke bilik. Dilihatnya tapak tangan dan belakang tangan si anak kecil calar balar.

Pembantu rumah memandikan anak kecil itu. Sambil menyiram air sambil dia menangis. Anak kecil itu pula terjerit-jerit menahan kepedihan sebaik calar-balar itu terkena air. Si pembantu rumah kemudian menidurkan anak kecil itu. Si bapa sengaja membiarkan anak itu tidur bersama pembantu rumah.

Keesokkan harinya, kedua-dua belah tangan si anak bengkak. Pembantu rumah mengadu. “Sapukan minyak gamat tu!” balas tuannya, bapa si anak.

Pulang dari kerja, dia tidak melayan anak kecil itu yang menghabiskan masa di bilik pembantu. Si bapa konon mahu mengajar anaknya.

Tiga hari berlalu, si ayah langsung tidak menjenguk anaknya sementara siibu juga begitu tetapi setiap hari bertanya kepada pembantu rumah. “Ita demam… ” jawap pembantunya ringkas.

“Bagi makan panadol tu,” balas si ibu.

Sebelum si ibu masuk bilik tidur dia menjenguk bilik pembantunya. Apabila dilihat anaknya Ita dalam pelukan pembantu rumah, dia menutup semula pintu.

Masuk hari keempat, pembantu rumah memberitahu tuannya bahawa suhu badan Ita terlalu panas.

“Petang nanti kita bawa ke klinik. Pukul 5.00 siap” kata majikannya itu.

Sampai waktunya si anak yang longlai dibawa ke klinik. Doktor mengarahnya ia dirujuk ke hospital kerana keadaannya serius.

Setelah seminggu di wad pediatrik doktor memanggil bapa dan ibu kanak-kanak itu.

“Tiada pilihan..” katanya yang mencadangkan agar kedua-dua tangan kanak-kanak itu dipotong kerana gangren yang terjadi sudah terlalu teruk.

“Ia sudah bernanah, demi nyawanya tangan perlu dipotong dari siku kebawah” kata doktor.

Si bapa dan ibu bagaikan terkena halilintar mendengar kata-kata itu.Terasa diri tunggang terbalik, tapi apalah dapat dikatakan. Si ibu meraung merangkul si anak. Dengan berat hati dan lelehan air mata isterinya, si bapa terketar-ketar menandatangani surat kebenaran pembedahan.

Keluar dari bilik pembedahan, selepas ubat bius yang dikenakan habis, si anak menangis kesakitan. Dia juga terpinga-pinga melihat kedua-dua tangannya berbalut putih. Direnung muka ayah dan ibunya. Kemudian ke wajah pembantu rumah. Dia mengerutkan dahi melihat mereka semua menangis.

Dalam seksaan menahan sakit, si anak yang keletah bersuara dalam linangan air mata.

“Abah.. Mama… Ita tak buat lagi. Ita tak mau ayah pukul. Ita tak mau jahat. Ita sayang abah.. sayang mama.” katanya berulang kali membuatkan si ibu gagal menahan rasa.

“Ita juga sayang Kak Narti..” katanya memandang wajah pembantu rumah, sekaligus membuatkan gadis dari Surabaya itu meraung seperti histeria.

“Abah.. bagilah balik tangan Ita. Buat apa ambil.. Ita janji tak buat lagi! Ita nak makan macam mana? Nak main macam mana? Ita janji tak conteng kereta lagi,” katanya bertalu-talu. Bagaikan gugur jantung si ibu mendengar kata-kata anaknya.

Meraung dia sekuat hati namun takdir yang sudah terjadi, tiada manusia dapat menahannya.

This is what I think...

Maybe, Just Maybe
We were suppose to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that, when we finally meet the right person, we will know how too be grateful for that Gift...

Maybe...
it is true that we don't know what we have until we lose it, but.. it is also true that we don't know what we have been missing until it Arrives...

Maybe...
the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, after all, you can't go on successfully in life until you let go of your past mistakes, failures and Heartaches...

Maybe...
you should hope for enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, and enough hope to make you Happy...

Maybe...
the happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything... They just make the most of everything that comes along their Way...

Maybe...
the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever Had...

Maybe...
happiness waits for all those who cry, all those who have searched, and all those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the inportance of all the people who have touched their Lives...

Maybe...
you should do something nice for someone every single day, even if it is simply to leave them Alone...

Maybe...
there are moments in life when you miss someone... a parent, a spouse, a lover, a friend, a child... so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real, so that once they are around you appreciate them More...

Maybe...
giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back. Don't expect love in return. Just wait for it to grow in their heart, but if it doesn't, be content that it grew in Yours...

are we denying HER rights?

Aku ada pasangan hidup sendiri....


Bila seronok, aku cari.


...pasanganku


Bila sedih, aku cari....Mak


Bila berjaya, aku ceritakan pada....pasanganku


Bila gagal, aku ceritakan pada....Mak


Bila bahagia, aku peluk erat....pasanganku


Bila berduka, aku peluk erat....Emakku


Bila nak bercuti, aku bawa....pasanganku


Bila sibuk, aku hantar anak ke rumah....Mak


Bila sambut valentine.. Aku bagi hadiah pada pasanganku


Bila sambut hari ibu...aku cuma dapat ucapkan "Selamat Hari Ibu"


Selalu.. aku ingat pasanganku


Selalu.. Mak ingat kat aku


Bila-bila... aku akan talipon pasanganku


Entah bila... aku nak talipon Mak


Selalu...aku belikan hadiah untuk pasanganku


Entah bila... aku nak belikan hadiah untuk Emak



Renungkan:

"Kalau kau sudah habis belajar dan berkerja...


bolehkah kau kirim wang untuk Mak?


Mak bukan nak banyak... lima puluh ringgit sebulan pun cukuplah".



Berderai air mata jika kita mendengarnya........





Tapi kalau Mak sudah tiada..........


MAKKKKK...RINDU MAK.... RINDU SANGAT....





Berapa ramai yang sanggup menyuapkan ibunya....


berapa ramai yang sanggup mencuci muntah ibunya.....


berapa ramai yang sanggup mengantikan lampin ibunya.....


berapa ramai yang sanggup... membersihkan najis ibunya.......


berapa ramai yang sanggup... membuang ulat dan membersihkan luka kudis ibunya....


berapa ramai yang sanggup berhenti kerja untuk menjaga ibunya.....




Dan akhir sekali berapa ramai yang sembahyang JENAZAH ibunya......



"Ya Allah, Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim, tuhan kepada sekalian makhluk di muka bumi ini, padaMu aku memohon keberkatan dan rahmat agar dapat kiranya Kau mengampuni segala dosa ibu-ibu kami (sama ada yg masih hidup atau yg telah mati), berikanlah ibu-ibu kami pedoman dan ketetapan iman dalam meniti hari-hari yang mendatang, lindungilah ibu-ibu kami dari bisikan syaitan yang menyesatkan..aku memohon padaMu Ya Allah..dengarkanlah rintihan dari anak kecil ini yang terlalu banyak berdosa terhadap insan yang bergelar ibu...makbulkanlah doa kami ini hendaknya..Ameen Ya Rabbal Alamin.."

mitos untuk lelaki (II)....

Kalau perempuan cantik pendiam
Lelaki akan kata: wow! ciri2 isteri idaman...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik pendiam
Lelaki akan kata: tak reti berkomunikasi agaknyer...

Kalau perempuan cantik berbuat jahat
Lelaki akan kata: mesti ada krisis nih... kesiannyer...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik berbuat jahat
Lelaki akan kata: dah la tak lawa,perangai plak mcm *tut*!!

Kalau perempuan cantik menolong lelaki yg kesusahan
Lelaki akan kata: wow! heroin sejati...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik menolong lelaki yg kesusahan
Lelaki akan kata: hmm... taktik nak ngorat la tu...

Kalau perempuan cantik dapat lelaki handsome
Lelaki akan kata: ok la... bagai pinang di belah dua...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik dapat lelaki handsome
Lelaki akan kata: kesian... mesti dah kena bomoh lelaki tu...

Kalau perempuan cantik di tinggal kekasih
Lelaki akan kata: buta kayu btol mamat tu!!

Kalau perempuan tak cantik di tinggal kekasih
Lelaki akan kata: patut pon kena reject...

Kalau perempuan cantik drive BMW
Lelaki akan kata: ntah dato' mana bela ni...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik drive BMW
Lelaki akan kata: mesti anak org kaya ni

Kalau perempuan cantik menuang air ke gelas lelaki
Lelaki akan kata: wah... caringnyer...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik menuang air ke gelas lelaki
Lelaki akan kata: eleh,gedik la tu...

Kalau perempuan cantik bersedih hati
Lelaki akan kata: don't worry, I will make u happy forever...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik bersedih hati
Lelaki akan kata: ckit2 nangis!! gembeng tol.. ngade2 la...

Kalau perempuan cantik pandai masak
Lelaki akan kata: dah la lawa, pandai masak plak tu...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik pandai masak
Lelaki akan kata: ntah sedap ke tak tu...

Kalau perempuan cantik main2 miskol
Lelaki akan kata: syoknye!!rindu la tu...

Kalau perempuan tak cantik main2 miskol
Lelaki akan kata: ko ni takde keje lain ke??! sibuk ni tau tak!!

Kalau perempuan cantik hantar email hari2
Lelaki akan kata: sukenyer...!!

Kalau perempuan tak cantik hantar2 email
Lelaki akan kata: asyik2 email dia...boring!

- sekadar gurauan semata my fren -

relationship between Me and me perhaps..

Do you know the relationship that you are all looking for? Do you know what it really is?

You want the relationship between you and you. And when you meet a person who looks fondly at you, or who is appreciative of you, or someone you look fondly upon, or someone you appreciate, it just hooks you up to your Inner Being, which is what you want all along.

So the relationship you are all looking for is the relationship between you and you. And everything else is just helpful in that, really.

Don't you find that interesting? That what you really want is a reason to vibrationally connect with who you really are.

And so, you ask so much of people because you say to them, "You need to be the one who causes me to feel good". And what we want to say to all of you is:

If any of you are without the relationship of your dreams right now, that's a wonderful thing. Because now you have an opportunity to work on the relationship that really matters first and foremost. And then, in that connection, the relationship of your dreams will come.

But you are going to discover the relationship of your dreams is really your own Inner Being. It's that infusion of clarity and confidence and wellness, that's what you are reaching for.

And it is nice to have a human friend who holds you as their object of attention and adores you right into your connection. But we want you experience greater independence than that. We want you to say to you lovers, "I love you, but I don't live for you. Because Source Energy flows through me. You are a catalyst to my wellbeing, but you are not essential to my wellbeing. Because I've got that figured out on my own. I have reached for thoughts that give me relief. And I have relieved myself all the way into my full connection of who I really am. And now we can just dance and play together".

Can you feel how you take them off the hook? In other words, do you know how many men/women would flock to you.? (ALL OF THEM!) .if they knew that you would allow them to be as they are and you would not hold them responsible for your happiness.

That's what everyone wants. How much bondage is there in believing that your happiness depends on me, so I've got to figure out what you want, and stand on my head in all those different ways, and it's not even possible!

The greatest gift you can give anyone is to be happy. And we will take that further. The greatest gift you can give to any partner, past, present or future is to be so connected with who you truly are that they are irrelevant to your connection. And when they are irrelevant to your connection, then you are going to have a really good time together. "

~Abraham Hicks

Special thanks to Mdm Coolyss, Boston.

My Next Project is...

I'm glad there is a word out there that describes what is going on. Evolve. Evolved. Evolving. However you choose to use it in a sentence is completely up to you. Right now I'm going to use "evolving" to describe my current situation(s).

I'm evolving and getting better at these things as I get older and more mature, but I have been finding it really challenging lately, to see improvements in all of the several roles and tasks I take on in life.

I like to see results. I like proof, the fine print, the A+, the fast times with running or the pat on the back when I do something right. I haven't been keeping in mind that even when it feels like I'm failing at things or doing a bad job, even when I can only pick out the negatives instead of the positives...I'm still evolving and getting better at life. I'm doing GREAT even though I'm not getting the recognition all the time, but not getting recognition can lead to me sometimes feeling unhappy.

Do you ever feel like you're taking one step forward and two steps back? It's nearly impossible to get to the finish line. In your mind, you're putting everything you can into something, yet you still see no results. It can be so frustrating and unfortunately there is never a quick fix. I spend so much time examining everyone elses behaviors, problems and mental health issues, that I tend to block out time to reflect and examine my own. It's way more fun to solve everyone elses problems and ignore my own fears about the world in front of me. By ignoring my own challenges, I ignore the opportunity to change and grow....to evolve ( getting better)

Today something really great happened to me. I can call it an epiphany if you want, but I'd like to think that this realization has been "evolving" for a while. It's something I have finally recognized and taken responsibility for, something that I am extremely bad at and something I ABSOLUTELY have to fix before I can really make a lasting impression on society.

SELF CARE and finding what makes me REALLY REALLY REALLY HAPPY

I know what you're going to say. "You can't take care of others if you don't know how to take care of yourself". I hear that ALL THE TIME. I ignore it ALL THE TIME. It's hard to believe something like that when you're doing just fine taking care of people ( even when you're not being nice to yourself). Let me tell you what will happen if you don't listen to people when they tell you to take care of yourself, - You will burn out !!

It's remarkable that I am still standing after all this time. After all this time of being this humanitarian and someone with these fairytale type thoughts, These dreams that with the snap of a finger, and with my magic wand, anything is possible. The only reason I'm still standing is probably because Allah hasn't given up on me. And in his own funny way, he has somehow convinced me not to give up on myself. Those previous dreams I've had, have become a tough reality let me tell you. If I'm going to survive, I need to take action immediately.

Perhaps maybe if I had listened to those folks telling me to take care of myself, I wouldn't feel so damn tired all the time. The truth is, I'm not even tired from helping others. I'm tired because I haven't done much to help myself. And now all of a sudden 'it's all coming back to me'. REALITY CHECK ZUKE !! I'm the one who needs the therapist now!! I have recognized that I have problems with self care. I have also come to realize that I could end up doing a HUGE disservice to my family and colleagues by not taking care of my mind and body in my future jobs. So many people are depending on me and not just in my profession, but in my personal life. Not practicing self-care really ends up hurting everyone.

Everyday of feeling unhappy or stressed out has led me to today where I feel in control of changing. I have evolved and am still evolving. I guess you could say I had a bit of relapse with my self-esteem and began second guessing a few things that really shouldn't be second guessed. I am who I am- take it or leave it and it's way too exhausting to be someone I'm not.

The last few days I have done some serious reflection on why I have been in such an over-sensitive and worried mood. I can only blame myself and the way I interpret the world and people around me. I pay too much attention and care too much about what everyone else is thinking about me or wanting from me. I completely disregard the shoes I WANT to walk in.

I tend to live for others and not for myself which then leads me feeling a HUGE loss of identity and feelings of resentment towards people I care about. A perfect example that I can't get out my mind, happened a few weeks ago which has affecting my mind, body and soul..I just pour myself out until I'm running on Empty. That can tend to leave me feeling a little bummed out, worn out and confused. When I say confused, I mean that I just don't understand why I always have to be the one to feel so heavy. I think I'm still learning to control my emotions, and balance my personal life..... these thoughts will never end. It's a scary and exciting time, and it these thoughts and feelings can make me feel very alone and confused.

JAWATAN KOSONG

KEKOSONGAN JAWATAN:
A. Ahli Syurga Dari Awal.
B. Ahli Neraka Dari Awal.
C. Ahli Neraka Sementara Kemudian Akan Dilantik Jadi Ahli Syurga.

EMPAT GANJARAN LUMAYAN (khas untuk jawatan A):
1. Nikmat kubur.
2. Perlindungan di Padang Mahsyar.
3. Keselamatan Meniti Titian Sirat.
4. Syurga yang kekal abadi.

TARIKH TEMUDUGA:
Bila-bila masa secara adhoc bermula dari saat membaca iklan ini.

LOKASI TEMUDUGA:
Di dalam kubur (alam barzakh).

KELAYAKAN:
Anda tidak perlu bawa siji-sijil,termasuk sijil saham termasuk saham Internet.
Anda tidak perlu bawa pingat , Mercedes mata belalang atau kad kredit.
Anda tidak perlu bawa wang atau harta serta emas yang anda kumpul.
Anda tidak perlu berparas rupa yg cantik, hensem atau berbadan tegap atau seksi.
Sila bawa dokumen asal iaitu : Iman dan Amal serta sedekah jariah sebagai sokongan.


PANEL/PENEMUDUGA:
Mungkar dan Nakir.

ENAM SOALAN BOCOR:
1. Siapa Tuhan anda?
2. Apa Agama anda?
3. Siapa Nabi anda?
4. Apa Kitab anda?
5. Di mana Kiblat anda?
6. Siapa Saudara anda?

CARA MEMOHON:
Anda cuma perlu menunggu penjemput yang berkaliber untuk menjemput anda. Ia akan menjemput anda pada bila-bila masa saja (mungkin sekejap lagi). Ia akan berlembut kepada orang-orang tertentu dan akan bengis kepada orang-orang tertentu.

Ia diberi nama Izrail.

TIPS UNTUK BERJAYA DALAM TEMUDUGA TERTUTUP INI:
Iman, iman dan iman..
Tepuk dada check diri sendiri

Sila war-warkan tawaran jawatan kosong ini kepada semua sahabat.

Wallahu-a'lam. Semoga berjaya dalam temuduga ini.
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